A New Dawn

It was another Tuesday when I wrote this about the mixed emotions I felt, the difficulty in confronting my decision not to return to the classroom as a substitute this year. My worry was about finding purpose. Well…

Yesterday I was hired by my former employer as a virtual teacher for sixth, seventh, and eighth grade English Language Arts learners who, in accordance with New Jersey’s options, have chosen all-remote learning. I have relocated to the West Coast since my retirement three years ago, but as my-former-now-current vice-principal quipped when he suggested it to my good friend and former-now-current teaching partner, “She’s up at 4:30 a.m. anyway, so…” (The truth is, I have taken to sleeping in until 5, sometimes even 5:30, but all that is about to change.)

I’m writing this because as I do, the commitment becomes ever more real. I already spent some hours caught between sleep and awake last night. I imagine that is not 100% over either. My husband has said, “Approach this with professionalism.” He knows my passion for my profession. He also knows that I can get swept away with it.

But I am not who I was; my experience as a substitute will help me keep perspective— that so much exists beyond my control despite my worthiest intentions. And the pandemic has been an exacting and enlightening educator.

I still believe that teaching is one way to make a difference in this world. I will do what I can.

8 thoughts on “A New Dawn”

  1. Congratulations! The fact that your former employer sought you out and offered you this position is a testament to your professionalism and your caring. Your students are lucky to have you on board, even with the early start. BTW, I couldn’t get to your post through your link at TWT.

    1. Thanks. I hope the link is active now, but you’ve read it! 😉 I think my initial feeling was that joy in being “wanted.” Now I’m feeling those “first-day jitters.” (Your morning glories helped with that.)

      1. I checked and you link is still not active. I got to your post by going into your comment on my post last week. A bit round about, but I’m glad I was able to find it.

  2. Patricia, wow! That’s a big change and a big commitment. I hope it goes well for you and the middle schoolers. It sounds like a great opportunity. My teaching partner is presently in Michigan and I’m in Bahrain. She teaches between 1-3 a.m. They are just waiting for visa clearance, so hopefully that will happen and she’ll be able to come here soon.

  3. Such lucky students to have you! I think there is a lot of exciting learning that can happen online. Can’t wait to read more about it!

  4. I am approaching this year with the mindset of “let it go” and one day at a time- you will make a difference!! Our students need love and care and it is clear you will provide that.

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